It is better to do the wrong thing whole-heartedly than the right thing half-heartedly. Earnestness is the key. “The fool who persists in his folly will become wise,” promised the mystic William Blake.
Just so I understand: If I dance for you and remember all of my choreography, perhaps you will like me. But if I’m danced for you and forget everything I ever knew, we fall straight into bed?
Whatever you do, do it with your whole heart. Are you on the drunk-and-dissolute path? Do that with everything you’ve got. Are you committed to awakening? Allow no one to deter, deflect or dissuade you. The key thing is not to hop from one path to another, to mix things up. Disaster that way lies.